2020 Election

 First of all, I should establish that I am a Trump supporter.  That being said, it's time to tell what the problem really is right now.  The problem is not that the party lost the election.  It is the FRAUD that occurred.  It is the fact that everyone is supposed to just go on with life as if it never happened.  What would have happened if this had happened to the Democrats?  I don't think I have to tell you all that.

So...here we are with the Democrats saying they want to unite the country!  Really?  After all the monumental cheating that happened?  Now, our voices are being censored on social media platforms.  Way to go unification!!!!    All this has divided us all even further.  I understand what happened on Jan. 6th should not have happened. There were Trump supporters trying to stop the Antifa thugs from causing the damage.  There is a lot that doesn't sound right about the situation and everyone has noticed this fact.  Yes, people are angry now. Not because we lost, we could except that if it were legally done.  IT WAS NOT!  

So, will the social platforms prosper by losing over 70 million subscribers clicking away on their platforms?  I guess we will wait and see. 😐

Next, President Trump did not encourage any violence.  Just stating facts here.

No Answer

My brother had his surgery on April 1.  He came home on April 14th.  He was in the critical therapy unit for days after the surgery.  He has Parkinson's and is having an awful time with balance.  It is getting worse.  The last time I took him to the doctor, he fell while we were getting out of the car to go inside.  When it was time to go in to see the doctor, they brought a wheelchair out to take him back.  He had fallen in their office the last time we were there as well.  (He falls multiple times a day.)  During the visit the doctor had asked him how many times a day he falls.  He told him about a half dozen.  The doctor told him he wanted him using the wheelchair which he had ordered for him the last visit. My brother has refused to do so.  Every time I have gone over lately he has fallen many times.  Someone called Adult Protective services about him.  He is in charge of himself so none of the family can tell him what to do.  We are helpless watching it all.  I fear he will kill himself with this falling.  The doctor even told him what all could happen to him during one of these falls.  It seems as though it has gone in one ear and out the other. :(  It upsets me to no end.  I don't want to see him hurt.  I do not know what is going to happen next and I certainly don't want to go over there to check on him to find him deceased from falling.  I cannot make him understand.  We all seem to be at the mercy of his next fall.  It is an evil disease that steals a person's life.  Here we all are in the middle of a pandemic and life goes on....emotions are jerked around all over the place because there are so many things that are the same, yet it is all so full of stress and different.  Enough rambling...done.

Tomorrow

I am getting a little anxious about tomorrow.  I called the hospital today.  They confirmed that they won't allow visitors for my brother on the surgical floor after his surgery.  That means that I may as well go on home and let them call me when the surgery is over.  That sounds terrible, I know.  But..consider this:  I am also 60 yrs. old.  I'm in the group that they just said should not go anywhere for the next 2 weeks.  So..I'm at risk apparently just by going in there in the morning with him.  No way around that one though...Some things you just have to do and take precautions. 

Hope you all are safe!  This thing is evil!

Covid-19 Diaries

So I've gotten back to this blogging thing here lately since we aren't babysitting right now.  The Grands don't get to come right now due to the virus.  Ugh! We aren't supposed to go to the store or anything. I was able to work outside just a bit the last few days up until yesterday when it was raining.  Other than that, we've been inside doing misc. things.  Honda has suspended production until April 30th.  At least that is the status so far.  I think we are all much better off having our normal schedule, even though part of this is good, even though it has basically been forced upon us.  By that I mean slowing down, resting and spending some quality time with those in your household.  I feel bad for those who live alone though.  That is really tough.

My brother's surgery has been scheduled for April 1.  What does this mean?  It means that I will be taking him. It means that after the surgery he will be alone.  They are not permitting visitors on the surgical floor at this time.  Ouch!  That is tough not to have any family there when you wake up.  :(

I have little chores planned for each day I'm off.  I just plan to do something constructive each day even if is something small.  I just think it's a good thing. 

I don't even know if many people even see this thing.  Doesn't matter really. I do think this new way of existing is starting to wear on us all!  What do ya all think?

Getting out

We were able to get out in the sunshine yesterday and today.  Last night we had a little fire to sit around.  It was a welcome distraction to everything that has been going on.  Today, I worked in my flower bed for a bit. The green weeds were already starting to invade.  :(

We saw the Grands yesterday and today for a bit, but no hugging or kissing aloud.  I am thankful to see them at least.  Sleep seems to be eluding me even though I am tired.  I think I need a break from Social Media.  I am glad to have been outside today. 

Tomorrow I will bake bread, bake cookies and do some laundry.  Not exciting but it will keep me busy I guess.  I also have a book I've been reading.  I do enjoy that as well.  Sounds like there is a chance of rain so I think yard work is probably out for tomorrow.  At some time we will have to go back to the grocery.  Doesn't all this sound exciting?  Hey..I will just be glad to be healthy.

Overall, the recent events just seem surreal.  We certainly will never forget all this.  We don't know what to think ...how is it all going to turn out?  The question of the day I guess.

How old is Corona really?

The more I hear and see about Corona, I wonder if that is what I had back in October.  That cough was awful!  Kept me up at night.  I will never know I guess.  It does make one wonder how long the thing has actually been around. Being home here day in and out is weird for us.  I do usually go out every day to check on my brother unless I happen to talk to him on the phone.  He called today and said they were going to be scheduling his surgery.  This surprised me because they told us it might be May before they could do it.  I don't know what changed. I guess I will find out more about dates tomorrow. 

I cannot believe what the Democrats are doing!  They keep trying to throw all these other issues in the bill about the Virus.  It is all about helping the American people and businesses through this crisis.  But, they have thrown in a lot of other things they want done.  They can't just focus on the crisis and take care of that?  There is plenty of time to address these other things they are wanting. They act like children!  Ugh!

More Crazy

Things are getting crazier here.  My daughter-in-law is going to work today with a packed bag in case she can't come back home.  She works in the ER.  We all feel stressed, I suppose because of the unknown even though I know that I trust God to deliver us.  Satan continually tries to destroy that trust!  I am sure Job went through that as well!  Stay strong believers!

I am so upset at the Congress of the United States right now.  Here we have all these people suffering with the current virus situation and they could help, but they are bickering among themselves instead of focusing on the virus situation only, they want to throw all these other issues in there.  The virus is our emergency and in my opinion should be their major concern.  They should be worried about the people that voted them into office.  Warning people!  November is coming!  They should be worried about letting the American people down.  We are sick of the bickering!  We just want them to focus on the crisis and only the crisis until they can agree!  TRY!!  Grow up!

Yep, I am ticked off!

Wow

Wow!  There certainly is a lot going on right now.  I trust God to get us all through this.  I have been thinking of all my friends and family and pray they all stay safe and healthy.  This Covid -19 is a scary thing for all of us.

We are staying in here at home with the exception of going to the store to get needed items.  We usually babysit the Grands but work for Mom and Dad has been suspended for now.  So, we are not seeing them and today is my youngest granddaughter's birthday.  She is 3.  I love them dearly and miss them.  I still have to check on my brother everyday.  He has Parkinson's and is not really doing very well.  He lives alone but should not be.  My heart breaks for him.  I went yesterday to do some house cleaning.  I'm rarely there when he doesn't fall.  He falls daily.  But..he won't listen to us all about living alone.  So we have no choice but to watch the whole thing.  Heartbreaking!  It really is..

I am trying to reach out to people on Facebook to let them know I'm thinking of them.  We are all in this together.  We will get through it.  I find it weird how I can be here at home and yet we still feel a bit stressed because everything is different and I guess it is just the thoughts of the unknown that bothers us all.  I pray for my daughter-in-law who works at an ER.  So much going on in the world and so many factors that play into it all. 

That is enough rambling for now but chances are, I'll be back..because it's what I do when things get like this. 

Hope anyone who reads this stays healthy and safe as well as your families and friends! 

Here we go again

I've been blessed once again with the cold of the season.  My lovely granddaughter brought us all a cold from school.  Not her fault but that's one gift I could do without.  Same old struggle...the cough that beats all coughs.  I must though, remember to be positive and never forget my blessings in life at times like these.  This is temporary.  Many people don't have that blessing.

Lately, I've been thinking about my younger days.  I don't know if it's because I'm watching my granddaughters learn and grow or if it's because I'm also thinking about may brother.  The one I lost last year.   It hasn't been a year yet.  I still miss him so much!  I miss his silly jokes and the fun that he always seemed to have around his friends and loved ones.  He was so outgoing which is what I am not. 

I recently re-connected with an old classmate.  She was my 1st best friend.  Isn't it interesting how when you have a true friend and you haven't seen or talked to each other in a long time, you can still easily relate to them?  Here I am at 60, remembering what my life was like at age 6. It really it true..best friends are forever.

I have been coughing and not sleeping; hence, I'm on here.
Time to try sleeping again.  Morning comes early.

No words

When you lose someone you love, it takes part of the heart away.  It's like having so much hurting pent up inside that you can't  really share accurately so you don't share it at all.  So..no words can really describe how much it hurts. :(

Seven staples

Today I took my older brother to the ER.  He fell in his drive on the ice and again when he entered the house.  He ended up with 2 cuts on the back of his head.  One cut was about 2 inches and the other about 1 inch.  A total of 7 staples in his head.   I am thankful he is o.k. but- #thefunneverends!

Aftermath

So there is no way to quickly get over a loss of a loved one.

Harley Joe Knox

It has happened.  I have lost my brother.  My heart is broken in what seems like a million pieces.  I loved him so much!

I remember when he was a baby and I would give him his  bottle while Mom was fixing supper.  He would pull my hair and I couldn't get to him with one hand on the bottle and one arm holding him.

Joe was a very talented musician and I am so blessed to have the CD that he performed.  This gives me a chance to again hear his voice whenever I need it.  My children won't have that when I pass because I don't have that talent but they WILL have my words found here.

I always thought when my Mother passed that it had to be the worst experience ever.  Well, this seems even worse and I don't know if it's because I am older and wimpier or if it is because losing a sibling is a little different experience than losing a Mom.  They are both bad ones.  Watching a loved one suffer is the worst thing ever!

Today I wrapped presents while listening to that CD and bawling.  That is the way it goes.  We've all got to heal somehow.  I am sure for every person it is a little different.

I am thankful for the many friends and family who have shown sympathy and support.  Thanks to all!

ROSES

This book was an awesome read!  I just finished it.  I think I had put off reading it because it was over 600 pages but I finally got to it.  It covers a whole range of human emotions and feelings.  It's one of those books that I didn't want to put down.  In my opinion, those are the best books.  I only mention books if they are really good.  This book has a lot of family tragedy, mystery, love, hate and all of the skeletons in the closets.  The difference between this and real life is that for many families, the stories never get told because of the feelings that would get hurt or the embarrassment it would cause.  I think every family has things like what happened in this book transpire.  It surely reminds me of how crazy life can be.  Anyway, if anyone is interested in a good read I would highly recommend this one!

Meanwhile...

Meanwhile, what was happening on the other end of the spectrum?  I'll refer to the spouse who left as "Leaver".  So Leaver gets to run away from the spousal responsibilities and begin a new life with someone else without trying to seek help for the problems. 
  Leaver wants to discard "Left Behind" and the whole family along with any good or bad memories.  Just make them all disappear like inconsequential pieces of trash. 

Is it that easy? Really?  What Leaver isn't realizing is that they are trading one set of life problems for a new set of life problems.  Why?  Because no life is without its problems that's why. 

Three things come to my mind concerning this whole thing at this time:

1. The word "Karma".
2. The phrase "What goes around comes around".
3. Satan is more than happy to waltz through an open door. 

As far as memories go, one cannot dispose of them.  Memories can haunt a person and in this case, it is deserved.  Feelings of suppressed guilt will rear their ugly heads.  BEWARE!