Hard to handle

My youngest brother has been suffering from the effects of his diabeties for a few years now.  Watching it all is breaking my heart all over again.  The 1st time was watching my Mother die.  My brother is in Miami Valley hospital suffering from the recent heart and stroke issues.  He so wants to be home for Xmas.  Don't know if it is going to happen but we hope it does.   My best friend will be retiring from our workplace on Dec.23 rd.  There is much to do this time of year and I am having doubts about how I will get it all done.  Need I really say more?  :(

40th Class Reunion

Yesterday was my 40th Class Reunion.  I had committed to going a while back.  As life would have it, the everyday business and tiredness that one feels from the weekly rut almost had me feeling like I didn't want to go.  But...I did.  I am so glad that I did.  (I ended up buying my food donation instead of preparing something myself because of the way my time worked out, but I guess there are more tragic things in life.)

It is hard to describe the feeling I got from being in that place with all the people that in each one of their own ways, had an effect on me becoming the person I am today.  A blast from the past.  I was not expecting to be impacted to that degree.  I was just so happy to see these people!  There were some there that had to travel a ways to get there.  Thank you! 

A part of me was glad to see that we have all come through the scrapes, traumas and joys of life to get back to this point.  There was an unexpected feeling of closeness to these people that I did not know I would experience.  That alone is kinda cool...

I thought this event was organized extremely well.  Hats off to those who put the time into getting all of us there.  I wanted to help but am at a point in my life right now that I have to say "no" to some things. :(  I know it is temporary though. 

I regret that there hasn't been more interaction between us all throughout the years.  I am also sorry that there were ones who missed it for whatever reason.  They truly missed out.  We would have loved seeing them too.  I am sorry too, for the ones we have lost. 

I am back

I guess I always end up back here even after such a long time.  Life is crazier than ever.  My younger brother still struggles to overcome effects of the stroke and the older one struggles to maintain a current health status.  A divorce did not help.  It is what it is.  Dad had open heart surgery back in Dec.  He continues to do his recommended therapies along with being on a strict diet.  I just continue with God's grace to stay sane..lol  I'm hanging in there!  We have a new (now 3 mo. old) granddaughter.   The kids are amazing and that is my unbiased opinion.   Haha
Life goes so fast that sometimes it seems as if we skip from Mon. to Fri. very quickly.  Stay tuned!